I understand, I couldn’t feel my heart for years.
Tired of feeling like an outsider, I turned it off. Stopped sharing my inner world, the rule was no vulnerability. Robotic and grey is the way I describe this period of my life.
Until one day, a friend posed a vital question. ‘Do you ever feel anything? I never see you get angry or sad or even seem happy.’ What the hell is she talking about? I feel absolutely EVERYTHING! However, I didn’t show it at the surface, suppressed it all inside.
It was my wake-up call, the moment I realized I had a stone heart.
Holding strong walls around me was directly impacting my personal relationships with family and friends, my career and my health. It’s been quite a journey to learn express my emotions outwardly, to allow myself be vulnerable.
To trust I’m not too much for the people in my life. Actually, others are relieved when I get real, because we all have bad days or aspects we’re not so proud of.