I understand, I couldn’t feel my heart for years.
Tired of feeling like an outsider, I turned it all off. Stopped sharing my inner world, the rule was absolutely no vulnerability. Robotic and grey is the way I describe this period of my life.
Until one day, my supervisor at work posed a vital question.
During our weekly meeting she asked, ‘Do you ever feel anything? I never see you get angry or sad or even seem happy…’
What in the hell is she talking about? I feel EVERYTHING!
That was the moment I realized I had a stone heart.
Holding strong walls around me was directly impacting my personal relationships with family and friends, my career and my health.
It’s been quite a journey to learn express my emotions outwardly, to allow myself be seen again. To trust I’m not too much for the people in my life. Actually, I found that others are relieved when I get real, because we all have parts we’re not so proud of.
My life has taken on a million brilliant hues.
I laugh, I cry, I play, I worry, I let go.
Now when I place my hand on my heart, I feel it pumping with vitality.
I want that for you, too.